everything's about smiles and cries, laughs and jibes.

i seek dedication (from you and i) in everything we do.

lol god's a funny guy, in a nice way

matthew 5:46-47

if you love those who love you, what reward will you get? are not even the tax collectors doing that? and if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? do not even pagans do that?

ignition.
fireworks whisk toward the Gates
upward, onward;
but the law has already sealed Fate
collapsing far short of
the final destination.
why do we still admire their
explosion.

The unadulterated lamb, defiled with all mankind's self-indulgent crimes.
All watch below, cringing as they watch their Beloved transform into a despicable scapegoat.
Why have they forsaken him? Have they no sense of decency, no heart?
But He knows that these selfish thoughts are all contained within the One that he can't bear to look at
Onlookers laugh and deride straight to the face of God,
and with every breathe, they crush the lamb with yet another burden
another sin, and another, and another
all deserving of death.
yet they still stand tall, and it is the lamb that falls

see the rain, pattering lightly
against the elucidated glass,
growing heavier but softer
as she peers out,
as it gloriously tumbles down,
dancing.

waiting.
maybe she should have been out there
but instead distances from it
coldness sates her, severs her asunder
as the warmth remains outside, obscured.

unpredictability

The countless possibilities each day holds should really stagger one, but we rarely process the thought the whole way. We go on with our day, thinking that each day will be another day, and maybe it will be just another day, but everyday can't be simply so....tbc

relationships

i really wonder what my future/current relationships will be like with people after i step out of the sanctuary next august, for that will be the last time that home will be familiar with me. sure, i'll know the place, but the people will different. a new generation with faces i've never seen. even with faces i see, its won't be those faces. it's quite a scary thought actually, and i suppose i've only given a fraction of my life to that church compared to some others. sure, everyone talks about coming back and visiting, but once you leave, it won't be the same when you come back. just like my leave at hillsborough; yes, i definitely did want to go back and visit, but i can't go back to the high school there and suddenly be acclimated. so many unfamiliar faces and strange customs that i am not used to, or rather wasn't around for. And, i thought i knew what relationships would continue even after graduation, but now i'm doubting my guesses. i guess it really depends on the people you meet in college and how close you bond with them, if at all. not to mention, friendships are two-sided, so the other person would have to be in the same predicament too...

as for tonight, i suppose logically i should worry about getting into colleges and finishing high school before i delve in thoughts of post-graduation

God made man,
and the devil made the
finishing touches.

won't you ever learn?
let it burn,
let it burn.

meep

today's end
is tomorrows beginning;
and perhaps,
just perhaps,
i'll be farther along, tomorrow
than i was today.
content.

but not today;
theres always
tomorrow, right?
perhaps, just perhaps...

I've tried more of me
and I've come up dry
trading You for things
things that go away

My happiness is found in less
of me and more of You