i really wonder what my future/current relationships will be like with people after i step out of the sanctuary next august, for that will be the last time that home will be familiar with me. sure, i'll know the place, but the people will different. a new generation with faces i've never seen. even with faces i see, its won't be those faces. it's quite a scary thought actually, and i suppose i've only given a fraction of my life to that church compared to some others. sure, everyone talks about coming back and visiting, but once you leave, it won't be the same when you come back. just like my leave at hillsborough; yes, i definitely did want to go back and visit, but i can't go back to the high school there and suddenly be acclimated. so many unfamiliar faces and strange customs that i am not used to, or rather wasn't around for. And, i thought i knew what relationships would continue even after graduation, but now i'm doubting my guesses. i guess it really depends on the people you meet in college and how close you bond with them, if at all. not to mention, friendships are two-sided, so the other person would have to be in the same predicament too...
as for tonight, i suppose logically i should worry about getting into colleges and finishing high school before i delve in thoughts of post-graduation
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