Spring Break is coming to a close. This week was an incredible week for me; there was rarely a dull day. I almost felt like I was at a retreat, but my friends were the speakers. I feel so inspired for my faith, but there is something different from this time.
I see the fruit, almost immediately. For the first time ever in my life, I'm not afraid to have a conversation about God with my parents. I'm not afraid to share my opinions on certain aspects of faith and life, because I know why I believe. It's like opening up a new side to me. Today I talked to an old friend who's fallen away from his faith, about faith and life for about 2-3 hours. I didn't even plan on meeting with him; it was truly a coincidence (ordained by God?).
He had a lot of hard questions. I didn't have all the answers. BUT IT WAS OKAY. We had a great conversation, and in the end, I admitted that my faith was weak. There were a lot of areas that I still had questions about, but that it was still all about this love slowly growing inside of me.
He was open to it and thanked me for the great conversation.
God is strongest IN MY WEAKNESS. Do you believe it? For those of you who read this blog and I haven't shared my testimony yet, ask me! I pray that I am not so arrogant that I attribute these things to myself, but that I may praise the Lord!
My faith is still weak, but it is headed in the right direction, and it is making that much of a difference.
"Where a little faith's enough
To see mountains lift and move"
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Spring Break To-Do List!
CHECK: fix longboard
EH: get phone switched
-scratches on my phone voided the warranty, whaattt
CHECK: go pleasure-longboarding
NO: PAL with kubota
-But we did have great conversations until 4am. No regrets
CHECK: Give my testimony to people.
-Yes, yes, yes...5 people over break? Bringing my total to 9 (of people back at Delaware)
CHECK:submit fafsa
-still need to get idoc and other stuff done
CHECK:AAIV Leadership
-my "prayerfully considering" led me to apply for Prayer Team! What do you know!
EH_CHECK: Hang out with UD people
-Hung out with Jia and had lunch with Jenny, and talked to Jeff. It was really nice, but I never got to hang out with Frankie. Disappointing, I wish I could manage my time better.
EH_CHECK: Finish both of my books
-ended up finishing another book that I wasn't referring to in my to do list. I finished Blue LIke Jazz by Donald Miller. Great book, I highly suggest it.
-to reads: Crazy Love by Francis Chan, Know Why You Believe by Paul Little, The Fight by John White, and Blueprint by Jaeson Ma. I'll be lucky if I finish two of these by end of Spring Quarter
NO: Cook at least 2 times for my parents
-my purpose in this was showing my love for them, and I think this Spring Break has been an epic breakthrough to just talking to them. So I don't feel so bad about this.
SORTA: Catch up/set friendship right with Anita
CHECK: hang out with Annie
CHECK: Bug Mary about college apps
-a little overdone =(
CHECK: Look at stuff to do over the summer
-UD Classes. 1st SEM CISC 181 (C++) and 2nd SEM PHYS 208 (E&M)
-this isn't finalized yet
FAIL: Phone James and figure out housing. Lol crap
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I want to start updating more, and posting more than one-liner posts. I'm always discouraged by whether my post is out there for attention or just out there for...I don't know. I think I'm just going to try to write though, and hope it's for the best.
I'm scared and excited to go back to college. I have 9ams next quarter (I hear the high schoolers complaining already), and it's going to be pretty hard for me to get up and start the day of with God on my mind, but I really pray that God will give me the strength to do it.
Really, this is almost an impossible goal for me. So if it get's done....it is all God's strength. I pray that this passion I have would not die this spring quarter, or ever.
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