judgmental

Some days I feel so judgmental, and I hate it, but there's a reason why those pharisees were so blind right? They were so focused on doing the right things and looking good, that they missed it. They didn't even realize they missed it, even when Jesus called them out on it. In fact, they thought he was wrong and crucified him for it.

In that way, I almost envy those who have sinned gravely, because they know they are sinners! Not that I don't, but if you're the sickest person in the world, you are probably the person who wants to see a healer the most. But if you're healthy for the most part, seeing a doctor isn't a high priority.

But Romans says all have sinned and fall short! Yet, why is it to easy to be that worker that the vineyard owner hires early in the morning and think "how is this person who worked half as many hours as me deserve the same wages?"

Even when I write it, it just seems off.

But sigh -- grace is not earned. Wages are, but grace is not. Grace is freely given as a gift, because it cannot be earned. Walking in the light should be a delight and freeing, not a chore and hard labor -- not to say it is easy.

And I do love being freed...but why do I find myself silently judging others? Paul claims he is the worst of sinners. So does the writer, C.J. Mahaney, author of "Humility, True Greatness." Humility, unworthiness, and undeserved grace are at the heart of Christianity.

I pray that I will one day truly believe in those words -- that I am the worst of sinners, so that I may be humbled and seek God all the more.