hello

1. what do you do when you are face to face with your failure? the way i see it, there are three options -- we berate ourselves mercilessly, we pretend that the failure never happen, or pick ourselves up and try to learn from it, and keep moving on. my guess is that we've all done all three.

even as i'm writing this, i'm remembering my failures and i'm disappointed at myself for all the times i haven't done the "positive choice" and deriding myself yet again. even in our failures, there is grace, and even how we deal with our failures, there is grace upon grace.

2. something hit me so quickly on sunday when a man shared his testimony with me in humbleness and sheer honesty -- why? not to "humble-brag" or be "that" christian that confesses sins, but truly to serve, and to make those around him realize that god is not too good for our sins.

3. sometimes i think that things will just happen to me. the right moment will come and the right thoughts will come and the next great philosophy theory will fly out of my fingers and onto the screen. or, the right moment of inspiration will come, and my code's architecture will be beautiful and pristine. or, the moment will come where all the words i have to say to my loved ones around will, will be able to said in the ideal moment. i wait for those moments.

and perhaps sometimes those moments do happen, and things to come together nicely. but i think for the most part, that beautiful fruit will be from come from learning that i am not made to serve myself, but to serve a king.

For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me and for the gospel will save it. What good is it for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul?