lazy

I'm starting to think sometimes I mix up my "introverted" side with just being plain lazy. Too lazy to shake a new person's hand or scared to hit a less shallow topic.

It seemed so much easier post-focus for some reason, because somehow I felt some power in that place. When at WCEC with people who are older than me, it just seems...harder? Beginning questions like "What dorm, state your from, major..." can't be used. I feel like I have no responsibility for taking care of older people, especially those out of college, yet they say people get lonelier as they grow older. If anything, there should be a greater push.

I also am starting to think that I can't really blame my boss for this cruddy internship. At least I can't entirely blame him; when I've given a task, I'm terribly inefficient. I was given a challenging task today, and I quickly just went for a brute-force method rather than think out of efficient and DRY code method. I don't even think my method worked.

Engineers find solutions to seemingly impossible problems, that's why people hire engineers. Where is that kid that would spent 8 hours on his calculus homework just to know how to do every single integral? The problems have become harder, oh so much harder. But my effort has seemingly hasn't increased...if anything, it looks as if it decreased.

I really should just quit the internship, start studying for interviews and do personal projects.