Small group leading reflection

//written at neighborhood meeting

Just reread my original post for how I wanted my fg to go. I said I didn't want to be concerned with the results of my fg, but rather my own heart towards my family group.
I'm not satisfied with how my family group has gone this quarter. I feel like my heart hasn't been changed that much for this family group. I haven't gotten any one on one with people, I have gchatted/fbchatted people. I don’t prepare adequately.

I do lead FG itself in an satisfactory way, but even still. There’s so much that I lack to put into FG that my FG already can only have such a potential.

There are two major problems with our family group right now.

One, we barely have Elder freshmen. We have Brandon and Roy. It’s not that I’m concerned about numbers (okay, just kdding, I admit I am), but I should be concerned with my own effort to reach out to the rest of the elder freshmen. Besides doorknocking for the first two weeks of school, I haven’t gone out to try to meet them. I thought maybe they’ll come across my path. They haven’t. Still trying to think of ways to seek these Asian Elder freshmen, whether going to parties to try to meet them, doorknocking again, or something else.

Another problem is the relationships within our family group. Luckily, Roy, Michelle, Michelle, Joanne, Kevin, Michael, Katie all feel comfortable within our family group. But any “outsider”, like Kristina, still doesn’t know most of them and doesn’t feel comfortable. I think this was most evident when people were signing Kristina’s birthday card. This…not too sure how to fix. Have people eat meals with each other?

I guess there’s a third problem. More of a goal than a problem. For whoever comes, I want to be able to strengthen the way the people view the gospel in their life. I want them to see their need for God, and desire and long for God more, for current Christians and nonchristians. I think that comes with us becoming more vulnerable with each other over time. We’re getting there, but I think I as a family group leader also need to stop trying to appear spiritual and be unashamed of my brokenness, only boasting in my need for God.