sigh

(morning post? This might be a first.)

Last night's Focus really reminded me of what I was so passionate about two years ago. You know what creates community? Reckless vulnerability, reckless love, and the humility to do it all.  And yes, sigh, this totally goes against my actions of my post in "secrets" -- I know.

At the same time, if you want to do Christian community, you have to (try to) do it right. A part of me dies when I hear that "AAIV is just a frat." Sometimes, I think that if we operated like frat, a lot of the social things we do would be a lot easier. But we're not, and we shouldn't aim to be. Frats choose -- we don't (or we shouldn't). In fact, if we did things the way Jesus did, we would especially choose those would didn't have their shit together. Also, we don't sell an awesome group of people or an awesome community.

We sell our sins, and share our redemption.

Sigh. I still think AAIV has these problems largely in part that we're too big. But I don't know.