Maybe I sounded a bit pretentious in some of my previous posts, like I'm Mr. Popular. I do not have 5 IM conversations all the time, I'll be lucky if I have one going, and they're always self-initiated.
I went to an AAIV sophomore's surprise birthday tonight...and felt out of place. Probably because my "typical" sophomore friends didn't go, but it still sucks that I can't feel comfortable at my own class's event. That I'd rather go to a freshmen gathering than a sophomore gathering. Maybe?
It's not that the people aren't nice, they're great. In fact, I've gotten meals with most of them, had great conversations with them, 1v1. But still, there's something missing. A good conversation/meal doesn't makeup for a year of not hanging out (or I guess two years now?). They might know my passions and some experiences....but still something is missing. It's that group dynamic that I haven't had.
I can't blame them. It's the little remnants from my freshmen year experience that has shaped so much of who I am and what my passions are on this campus.
I don't know.
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