sincerity.

it's late.

i hate, hate ..humanities classes.
public speaking, my butt

this is why i am an engineer.
because there was no other options

(oh the posted time is deceiving though. minus 1 hr for midwest)

"don't ever, EVER let somebody cramp your style... be who you be, ya hearrd"

Because i didn't buy anything after 6 hours of black friday shopping, i rewarded myself by buying a "mystery box," except the mystery box I bought yesterday was $5, not $10--cyber monday deal fail.

I don't know why exactly I bought it (well I guess I do, for the stated reason above), but usually I don't do stuff like this...

I'm still very curious though =P.

i'm going to sleep tonight the earliest i have done all schoolyear - aiming for 11pm.

Today, I went Black Friday shopping with some upperclassmen (Hace, Luis, HC) and some people from my own grade (Sherry, Wonjae). It was interesting...we stayed up finding chords to songs, and playing the guitar to them (luckily Sherry is a music major, so transposing was easy), and then learning ukulele chords, and playing them to that too. Who knew "I'm Yours" and "Beautiful One" could have the same chords?

Then we played codmw2, slept for 1 hr in my dorm, and headed off to Woodfield Mall for Black Friday Shopping. I didn't buy anything, but I got to have a great conversation with Hace and listen to his astounding and unique testimony. Some good times, and I didn't do a crash-nap when I came back because I guess I had random like 10-20 min naps within the mall @starbucks, sleepnumber beds, some beef burger place that was really good..

On a side note, after seeing this campus entirely empty out due to Thanksgiving break...I do NOT want to live in a single. In addition, I'm not sure if the song was "beautiful one" or not, but I think it was..

Ate panera for dinner...kind of splurged because I didn't spend anything on Black Friday..

So excited to go back...
talk to my parents..brother..friends...SNOWBOARDDDD

These two weeks....finals studying/FINALS ...>_>

happy birthday, dad!

"For your final speech, argue on anything you like that may be related to your future career."

What to write/talk about. Electrical Engineering? Technically speaking, that's not my major right now because I'm undeclared right now, but at the same time I'm not taking anymore chemistry, which points to IE, Mech, and EE, and the fact that I'm taking an EE class next quarter makes me (and others) believe that I'm an EE major.

So EE. What to write about? I don't know even know. I don't know what EE consists of, so I couldn't even write a speech explaining it, much less arguing something related to it. Why did I pick engineering in the first place? Well, come April of 2010, it was really a scramble of whether I want to do med, pharmacy, or engineering. Why I never considered econ or business...well I guess I never considered it after seeing my change from AP Econ. I didn't want everything I do to be related to maximizing profit, persuading people to do this, or that. Admittingly though, my understanding of business and econ is quite minuscule, so my decision was probably made off of a poor foundation.

Why not Med or pharmacy? Well considering how I felt towards my science classes in HS vs my math classes, engineering seemed like the choice that I liked more. "Math." Even though I'm not good at it, even though pre-med majors thought SAT II Math was the easiest test invented while I thought it was the hardest one, here I am, studying engineering. I would love to say I didn't want to choose my career solely based on money, which in some sense I did--Pharmacy would have been an easy 100K out of college, and medical...well honestly, I don't think being a doctor is worth the money if that's what you're in it for. The time you burn away becoming a doctor, and being a doctor is worth far more than the money you earn (if that's the only reason you're there). I would love say that I gave up pharmacy and medicine to pursue my "true" passion in light of lower income, less stability in job, etc. But let's be honest here, engineering majors are not poor. In fact, when I mentioned a mechanical engineering degree, my parents quickly shook their heads because they know many other kids who are out of job as mechE majors. I guess that's why I'm not a mechE, even though I think mechE is the heart of engineering, (even though I still have no idea of what it is), but EE sounds really cool too. This paragraph is far too long; therefore, I guess I choose engineering....because I thought it'd be cooler. Honestly--and hopefully Adam Smith's invisible hand pushes me into the society accordingly. That, or I'm going to know 2000 doctors because I swear at least 1/2 the people I meet are "pre-med" majors.

Oh, and I'm bad at English, and I hate reading. That's probably also why I didn't want to do business (or for that matter, other non-math science majors).

And...that is the reason why NU forces engineers to take classes like public speaking...because we hate reading, writing, ...and speaking, and Public Speaking forces the student to do all three. Thus, back to the speech.

Well, this is a very dull and straight-forward post for such a emotions-filled holiday--Happy Thanksgiving. I'm thankful for PEOPLE this year. Vague and cloudy, I know. Maybe I'll write something on that for another time (warning: I don't think I've ever followed through went I wrote that in previous entries). Right now, I'm hoping some idea will suddenly pop up in my head to talk about for my speech as I continuously write in this empty dorm.

Oh. I'm 19 now. o.0 I don't know what to think, but perhaps that's the best.

Stop this train I want to get off and go home again


Don't know how else to say it, don't want to see my parents grow old...

11/20 played broomball with kasa against tasc (2-2!)

figured i should start recording cool stuff that happens but i'll forget later

11/14 - wongfu with esther and her friend
11/15 - happiness coke machine!

大学

the highs are so high

but the lows are so low

discovering my true name

The worst fear isn't failing. It's succeeding and realizing your success is worth nothing.