One of the criminals who were hanged railed at him, saying, “Are you not the Christ? Save yourself and us!”
to be written..
Friday, May 31, 2013
the first criminal
to be written..
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
why
When there seems to be an insurmountable barrier between you and another person, even if the desire to get to know each other is there. Something just doesn't click, the two persons don't mesh, no matter the effort.
I think the worst thing you can do is dismiss it. Give up.
I remember when I first got to know Billy, he sent plenty of awkward "what's up" IMs to me from iamtherealcia (his sn). (Wow, "sn." Haven't used that abbreviation in a while.)
God reign in this place, may chains be broken.
I think the worst thing you can do is dismiss it. Give up.
I remember when I first got to know Billy, he sent plenty of awkward "what's up" IMs to me from iamtherealcia (his sn). (Wow, "sn." Haven't used that abbreviation in a while.)
God reign in this place, may chains be broken.
4am
it's late again.
I remember always writing around 3am last year. In fact, I feel like I would sometimes purposely stay up to experience that 3am bliss. When you know it's too late to do more work, but I'm still awake but a little dazed. It's the end of the day right before I sleep, and somehow, in this moment, I feel peace. The stillness of my room, the silence of Men's Den...
I realize I'm not the person I was a year ago. For better or for worse, I don't know. I think there were many passions that I felt stronger about last year, but now I feel a stronger reliance of God. Last year I felt like I had things under control, and this year...not so much, in every sense of the phrase. In every aspect of my life. Besides maybe somehow I got the promise of a internship this summer this past December, or else I'd probably be going insane right now.
Maybe it's the junior-moving-to-senior stage, where "real life" is becoming more evident, bigger decisions are closer, and the straight-line of EA classes and and freshmen exploring has past.
And it's been tough. I'm not sure if I'm burned out or really just have a lack of care. I guess those two are basically the same thing. I'm not sure if I have apathy or that I actually trust God with these things. I'd assume (and hope) and mix of both.
I'll miss this. There will be a day when I won't have the blessing of staying up until 3-4am. Or when I don't see reasoning for hardship as clearly as I do now. ANd in that time, I hope I can still find peace, and still trust in God.
What does it even mean to trust in God?
Well, to trust someone is to ....believe that they will not hurt you. Or maybe not that, maybe it's simply that they have your best intentions in mind. Sometimes that does involve hurt. To trust someone is to believe that they have your best intentions in mind.
But to trust God is deeper than trusting a person because he doesn't break promises like people do. And he is the Alpha and the Omega, he knows the beginning and the end. He is omniscient, all knowing of us, of me. It's strange to think that someone knows you better than you know yourself, but God knows the number of hairs on our head. I don't know that.
So I pray for greater trust in God and less trust in myself. And I pray for strength and endurance to get through these next few weeks.
I remember always writing around 3am last year. In fact, I feel like I would sometimes purposely stay up to experience that 3am bliss. When you know it's too late to do more work, but I'm still awake but a little dazed. It's the end of the day right before I sleep, and somehow, in this moment, I feel peace. The stillness of my room, the silence of Men's Den...
I realize I'm not the person I was a year ago. For better or for worse, I don't know. I think there were many passions that I felt stronger about last year, but now I feel a stronger reliance of God. Last year I felt like I had things under control, and this year...not so much, in every sense of the phrase. In every aspect of my life. Besides maybe somehow I got the promise of a internship this summer this past December, or else I'd probably be going insane right now.
Maybe it's the junior-moving-to-senior stage, where "real life" is becoming more evident, bigger decisions are closer, and the straight-line of EA classes and and freshmen exploring has past.
And it's been tough. I'm not sure if I'm burned out or really just have a lack of care. I guess those two are basically the same thing. I'm not sure if I have apathy or that I actually trust God with these things. I'd assume (and hope) and mix of both.
I'll miss this. There will be a day when I won't have the blessing of staying up until 3-4am. Or when I don't see reasoning for hardship as clearly as I do now. ANd in that time, I hope I can still find peace, and still trust in God.
What does it even mean to trust in God?
Well, to trust someone is to ....believe that they will not hurt you. Or maybe not that, maybe it's simply that they have your best intentions in mind. Sometimes that does involve hurt. To trust someone is to believe that they have your best intentions in mind.
But to trust God is deeper than trusting a person because he doesn't break promises like people do. And he is the Alpha and the Omega, he knows the beginning and the end. He is omniscient, all knowing of us, of me. It's strange to think that someone knows you better than you know yourself, but God knows the number of hairs on our head. I don't know that.
So I pray for greater trust in God and less trust in myself. And I pray for strength and endurance to get through these next few weeks.
Monday, May 27, 2013
Saturday, May 25, 2013
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
"How Suffering Sets You Free" - Peter Hong
I highly recommend this sermon if you are going through times of suffering or have an hour to kill.
think I'll write about this later...
I highly recommend this sermon if you are going through times of suffering or have an hour to kill.
think I'll write about this later...
Sunday, May 19, 2013
Monday, May 13, 2013
i remember pastor peter talking about suffering during fall quarter.
What suffering comes down to is a single question: can you live in the mystery of a Good god? A God that knows far more than you, is far greater than you, far more holy and more trustworthy?
Can you live in that mystery?
Can I live in that mystery?
I remember sitting through those sermons being so blessed, but life was going pretty swell at the time. Of course, the last sermon was the day after the Newtown shootings.
It all seemed so quick. Every week was a struggle with her, and in mind an accomplishment. I guess I still think it's amazing that we ended our relationship on the terms that it did, and not for communication problems, or too many differences, or not enough time, or simply a lack of interest. I suppose I should be thankful for that.
But it seemed like it was looking up. Seemed like it was about to get better, and maybe our relationship would finally take a step forward.
I guess that's another reason why I'm so confused about this all. It was such a brash decision.
What suffering comes down to is a single question: can you live in the mystery of a Good god? A God that knows far more than you, is far greater than you, far more holy and more trustworthy?
Can you live in that mystery?
Can I live in that mystery?
I remember sitting through those sermons being so blessed, but life was going pretty swell at the time. Of course, the last sermon was the day after the Newtown shootings.
It all seemed so quick. Every week was a struggle with her, and in mind an accomplishment. I guess I still think it's amazing that we ended our relationship on the terms that it did, and not for communication problems, or too many differences, or not enough time, or simply a lack of interest. I suppose I should be thankful for that.
But it seemed like it was looking up. Seemed like it was about to get better, and maybe our relationship would finally take a step forward.
I guess that's another reason why I'm so confused about this all. It was such a brash decision.
Sunday, May 12, 2013
Saturday, May 11, 2013
Thursday, May 9, 2013
http://www.nj.com/mercer/index.ssf/2013/05/prosecutor_heading_up_tcnj_stu.html'
I played tennis with Paige in my middle school years.
What's wrong with this world?
I played tennis with Paige in my middle school years.
What's wrong with this world?
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
from jane's tumblr
“Where we start is how we finish.
If you think electric guitar in a full band is too loud and you decide to only do acoustic guitar with a cajon, then cool. But I hope you talk this out with Jesus and you’re motivated by a heart that looks to him first. I hope it’s not to be rebellious against big bands and big stages and subwoofers — because no one cares about your statement of rebellion, including you.
If you despise megachurches that spend too much money on fancy coffee bars and jumbo projection screens and laser light shows, then why don’t you build a relationship with them and inspire them to invest in your social justice and homeless ministry and community service. Maybe this church is dying to do something more, and maybe you’re the guy to help them with that. You could be the bridge.
We can’t establish ourselves on a counter-theology. It will collapse. It always does. These movements fade. We can embrace them and be aware of culture: but it’s not your altar. Don’t idolize anti-idolatry. It never works.
It is not the Way of Christ to dismantle others because you think you’re doing it better. If you actually are doing it better: show us how.
And if no one listens, then please don’t be so hyper-critical to look down your nose on Christian culture. No one really cares what you think about it. People only care if you care about them — and you can only care about them if you are within the love of Christ.
Start with Jesus, finish with Jesus.”
- J.S. Park
“Where we start is how we finish.
If you think electric guitar in a full band is too loud and you decide to only do acoustic guitar with a cajon, then cool. But I hope you talk this out with Jesus and you’re motivated by a heart that looks to him first. I hope it’s not to be rebellious against big bands and big stages and subwoofers — because no one cares about your statement of rebellion, including you.
If you despise megachurches that spend too much money on fancy coffee bars and jumbo projection screens and laser light shows, then why don’t you build a relationship with them and inspire them to invest in your social justice and homeless ministry and community service. Maybe this church is dying to do something more, and maybe you’re the guy to help them with that. You could be the bridge.
We can’t establish ourselves on a counter-theology. It will collapse. It always does. These movements fade. We can embrace them and be aware of culture: but it’s not your altar. Don’t idolize anti-idolatry. It never works.
It is not the Way of Christ to dismantle others because you think you’re doing it better. If you actually are doing it better: show us how.
And if no one listens, then please don’t be so hyper-critical to look down your nose on Christian culture. No one really cares what you think about it. People only care if you care about them — and you can only care about them if you are within the love of Christ.
Start with Jesus, finish with Jesus.”
- J.S. Park
Monday, May 6, 2013
Saturday, May 4, 2013
1 Thessalonians 5
Be at peace among yourselves. And we urge you, brothers, admonish the idle, encourage the fainthearted, help the weak, be patient with them all. See that no one repays anyone evil for evil, but always seek to do good to one another and to everyone. Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.
Hold fast to what is good.
went to watch a play tonight (instead of kasa).
It basically went through 6 people's stories of how they got wrongfully convicted of murder, got put on death row, then later got proved innocent after many years, then was released.
What do you do when you lose 20 years of your life to prison?
It basically went through 6 people's stories of how they got wrongfully convicted of murder, got put on death row, then later got proved innocent after many years, then was released.
What do you do when you lose 20 years of your life to prison?
Friday, May 3, 2013
talking is king
Being able to communicate what you are feeling, what you are experiencing, and just in a broadsense--being able to communicate you....is key.
I think about articles and documentaries I've seen where people with Asperger's syndrome struggle to communicate (and I'm sure this happens with many people with other illnesses, or with no illness at all). It's not that they have nothing to communicate; they don't lack thoughts but they lack the ability to communicate their thoughts well.
I think back to winter quarter, during New Comm...learning that God's purpose for us was to "be fully known and fully accepted."
I think that's shalom, I think that's the God's Kingdom. When all people are fully known and fully accepted.
I think about articles and documentaries I've seen where people with Asperger's syndrome struggle to communicate (and I'm sure this happens with many people with other illnesses, or with no illness at all). It's not that they have nothing to communicate; they don't lack thoughts but they lack the ability to communicate their thoughts well.
I think back to winter quarter, during New Comm...learning that God's purpose for us was to "be fully known and fully accepted."
I think that's shalom, I think that's the God's Kingdom. When all people are fully known and fully accepted.
Thursday, May 2, 2013
talks with the ashwu
About culture.
Not about race culture specifically (like Asian or white), but more with student groups: AAIV culture. CRU culture. Greek culture.
A single undergrad's experience can be so vastly different simply from the student-group culture they steep themselves in.
I don't really know what to think about these differences, other than the fact that I think that's why dorms are all the more beautiful. We meet and live with people who otherwise would just be another empty face on Sheridan.
Not about race culture specifically (like Asian or white), but more with student groups: AAIV culture. CRU culture. Greek culture.
A single undergrad's experience can be so vastly different simply from the student-group culture they steep themselves in.
I don't really know what to think about these differences, other than the fact that I think that's why dorms are all the more beautiful. We meet and live with people who otherwise would just be another empty face on Sheridan.
sorry for not really posting in the past ....since february.
I think the dynamics of this blog are bound to change (or more likely have already changed) because of this newfound relationship I have entered in.
Before this, I would say my life was relatively simpler. I don't think I carry much hidden burden with me, and with, I like to live my life open. I like to assess my actions and my thoughts, and post about it. I hope it isn't to show off my thought process, but rather for me to understand how I think better and for people to get to know who I am and how I think, better.
Nevertheless, I will find a way to post, but many of the things that come up in my life can't be shared without bringing in another party. Before I think I could get away with having a nameless person in my blog, but this case, I don't think that would work.
So I apologize, but it is a necessary shift.
I think the dynamics of this blog are bound to change (or more likely have already changed) because of this newfound relationship I have entered in.
Before this, I would say my life was relatively simpler. I don't think I carry much hidden burden with me, and with, I like to live my life open. I like to assess my actions and my thoughts, and post about it. I hope it isn't to show off my thought process, but rather for me to understand how I think better and for people to get to know who I am and how I think, better.
Nevertheless, I will find a way to post, but many of the things that come up in my life can't be shared without bringing in another party. Before I think I could get away with having a nameless person in my blog, but this case, I don't think that would work.
So I apologize, but it is a necessary shift.
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