the last night

Tomorrow I fly back to Chicago, where I'll start work on Monday. It's been a hell of a ride since graduating in March, and I'm happy with how it worked out these past few months, which is something not all have the blessing to say. Still mishaps and regrets littered here and there, but nothing more than usual I suppose.

People measure life in these monuments, and I suppose I've checked off graduating college and first job -- the next is marriage, which all the asian parents never cease to remind me when they ask me about if I have a girlfriend. It's a scary yet true thought, but it's alright. Marriage is not on my mind now, nor does it need to be. I just need to take this one day at a time.

"We learn life by living" -- I read somewhere.

I'm not sure how to join the right church or how to do my taxes yet, and I'm not sure who I'll be hanging out with on a Friday night in a month, and hell -- I don't even know how to do my job. But we walk this road one step at a time.

I suppose I'll need a new Facebook album name...

it's july

currently in shanghai.

thoughts

• After four years of college, still trying to learn humility without destroying self confidence. Family trips always bring out so many flaws in myself. Lots of things I want to change -- sigh. Hopefully before I date. Or the person I date will have to have a lot of patience..
• Part of why this family trip is hard is because I suck at Chinese, so I can't be myself because I can't communicate myself.
• I saw a janitor today in an abandoned (new but not moved in) mall, and the life in her eyes just looked dead. Makes me wonder now that I'm a fresh graduate with so many hopes and high ambitions -- what's it like to be in your 50s, 60s, and realize that you may never reach the potential you thought you had? To be 60s and still mopping floors?
• I also saw a child light up a parent's face. 
• Shanghai's weather has been a nice change to Taipei's ive-been-outside-for-1-min-and-im-sticky-already

to better days.