out of college

but still SO much to learn...

The most beautiful thing someone can say is a genuine "I'm wrong. I'm sorry."

I need to work on facing failures and admitting fault more too.

trust

Trusting is a huge step ahead of respecting. I respect all those who I trust, but I don't trust all those who I respect.

(And I say this because I've substituted trust at times for respect in my own mind, but now I know I learn that the two aren't even close to being equal.)

If you want to see someone trusts, ask them what person they'd recommend you to date -- assuming they trust you too.

"May you be protected from hearts that are not humble, tongues that are not wise and eyes that have forgotten how to cry. "

source

when shit hits the fan

At the end of the day, people want to be at a place where they can be heard, regardless of whether they were right or wrong.

Me too.

"I am a human being. Nothing human can be alien to me."

-Maya Angelou

even now

why is it so hard for me to stop and press into the gospel?

done

I've injured myself too many times this year and I think this is where it'll stop. Had a foot sprain from volleyball that lasted many months, then an ankle sprain from frisbee that lasted a few weeks, then a wrist pain from benching that lasted a week, and now a back injury from deadlifting that is unsettlingly similar to Yom's, which has been going on for over a year now.

So no more lifting, and a break on sports.

Stopping at repping 225 squat, 225, dl, 115 military press, and 175 bench. This quarter is definitely by far the most consistently I've worked out, and I've come to enjoy going to SPAC every morning.

tbc

“There is not one personal transformation in which the heart is left without an object of ultimate beauty and joy. The heart’s desire for one particular object can be conquered, but its desire to have some object is unconquerable. The only way to dispossess the heart of an old affection is by the expulsive power of a new one.”
— Thomas Chalmers

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It's things like this that make me believe.

The more I discuss with others about Christianity, it always seems to be a similar conclusion -- I have faith. God isn't provable because He wants it to faith. On the other side of the coin, they say that Christianity is the perfect lie -- and from their perspective, I'd agree.

But when I hear about the condition of my heart through the gospel, I see that it reflects my own desires so well. How I chase and chase idols, then stop idol A by replacing with idol B. As John Calvin says, our hearts are idol factories.