annie

Goodness, it's be almost two months and I still can't wrap my head around it...that she doesn't...exist here anymore.

I was in Mudd library; it must have been a Tuesday night because I was working on 223 homework when I found out. Luckily 223 homework is due on Thursdays, so I immediately put away my books and just sat there, in front of the computer in disbelief. I had come back from Thanksgiving the day before. I called her on the train ride back to campus the day before

...and she sounded so weak, so weak that I could barely make out her words.

God, this is my first encounter of shortage of time. I was going to hang out with her during Thanksgiving break, but the whole NJ/DE thing was weird and never got to it. I told her we could hang when I got back for Winter Break.

I don't know. She was probably the only person back in Jersey that I still felt tight with at the level I am with Delaware folk.

Still doesn't fit in my hand. I can't wrap my head around death. yet